Making these pancakes was easy; taking a picture of them wasn’t. Food photography is hard! Anyhow, I discovered buckwheat and now I am in love. Buckwheat is so nutritious and full of protein, fiber, and magnesium which we all could use more of. Another thing going for is that it is low in phytic acid, so it is a bit easier to digest. It’s not even a grain!!! I had no idea. To make them, I mixed together 3/4 cups buckwheat flour, 3/4 cups water, 1 big banana, and a couple tablespoons of cricket flour. I used coconut oil and fried them in an iron skillet which makes them even better! Next time I make them, which will probably be tonight, I am going to add more cricket flour because I was a little too shy with it. Lastly, when you make these, use real grass-fed butter because life is too short to eat the crappy stuff.
I have been reading the “Exquisite Risk” by Mark Nepo and I took a picture of this chapter because I really want to share it with you. This is one of those books that found me and his words are exactly what I need to hear right now.
I have done a wonderful job at physically simplifying my life. I live in a bus, I share a car with my boyfriend, I have parred down my wardrobe, I cook and eat healthy food, I am able to create time for myself, and I garden. Yet, the inner peace I thought simplifying my life would provide still eludes me.
As a girl, the characters I most admired were the revolutionaries, the warriors, the singers, the teachers and poets. As a young woman I tried to be these characerts. I approached what ever I was doing with the desire to help people and the environment and while there is nothing wrong with that, I was pursuing that desire without being aware that I was also searching for something else: peace. The kind of peace that can only come from being seen and recognized for who you truly are. I struggle with work, because I don’t feel seen. I feel like a shadow of myself when I am there. I realize now that when I feel like quitting work and running out the door, my real desire is to use such a bold action as if to say to myself, family, friends, and community: “This isn’t me goddamnit! Being a receptionist is not all of who I am. I am Amanda. I love being outside and getting dirty. I am a revolutionary in my own way. My passion is homesteading and entomophagy, and helping people reconnect with nature!!!!!!”
Maybe if I can be aware of what I am searching for I can be more honest with who I am and what I want to do with my life. If I am not searching for fame and just peace, how might that change my actions and life path? How can I can satisfy my need to be seen without the grandeur of fame? How can I see myself and honor who I truly am? These are questions I will think on for a bit and in the meantime I want to practice noticing when others are just asking to be seen for who they are and honor them:)
I made a beautiful mistake and I am so glad that I did because I learned so much! When I was adding materials to my garden bed I didn’t pay enough attention to the carbon/nitrogen ratio, so now I am struggling to bring my bush beans back to their beautiful green color. Plants need nitrogen to grow and when they don’t get enough, their leaves can turn yellow. Nitrogen can be added in the form of green stuff like grass clippings, or urine, manure, blood etc. I am currently using an amendment derived from dead sea birds and I am slowly seeing my plants regain some color. I have been spoiled in the past with really great soil to begin with, so I don’t have experience building soil from scratch. I am fortunate to have this opportunity because it gives me an appreciation for the complexity of soil life. I am noticing that without the right balance, my garden is void of the variety of bugs that I used to see in my old garden and I don’t have mushrooms! My plants are also not as big as I think they should be at this time of year. I’ll keep trying and learning and let you all know what happens!
Why Apple can’t just include a sleeve with new laptop computers is beyond me. They come fully charged and ready to go, but no sleeve. ughhhhh. I had a difficult time finding a sleeve for my tiny MacBook Air, so I decided to just make one out of materials I already owned. I ended up using an old shrunken sweater, two buttons and a rubber band and I love how it turned out!